29/01/2016

Pottermore

Hello Everyone =]


Finally pottermore is back, I've been waiting so long to find out which house im in!

And I'm so happy to announce that I'm in Hufflepuff! YAY!!!!!!!


And my wand is: Rowan wood with unicorn hair core =]

Exciting stuff, I'm going to either invest in a badge or a necklace, not sure yet.

Would love to know if your a fellow hufflepuff?

Love, Emma xxx

26/01/2016

Dieting

Hello Everyone =]


I've decided to finally start dieting!

I've always been big, but now its just a joke, buying clothes, especially pants is embarrassing and I'm struggling to walk.

So, I've decided to start with the slim fast diet, I wont be completely following their diet as I'm a picky eater but I will be following my calorie intake and what I can and cant eat. My dad kindly bought me my first batch of stuff, I got the banana shake mix, meal bars and pretzels. I am also drinking water, but haven't started exercising yet, i have a doctors appointment next week to talk about how i can exercise without causing complete agony in my knees. I just need the motivation to push me.

Can't wait to go shopping, I have also bought myself a blender so I can make smoothies =]

I quit smoking, I'm sure I can do this!

Do you have any tips for me? or recipes?

Love, Emma xxx

24/01/2016

Recently

Hello Everyone =]


I finally went shopping yesterday and spent my vouchers I got for christmas. First I went to superdrug and got these:
These are the best for my skin. 

 There is something about fruity shower gel that I love, the orange one has a stronger scent but they both smell amazing.

 My sister already had a bottle of this in the bathroom and I used it, so decided to buy my own.

Finally got some new ear plugs, as my bedroom is now situating next to the kitchen, sometimes it can get a bit noisy. 

The next shop I went to was next, as I cant fit into their clothes, I decided to buy from the home-ware section instead:
 Got a new fitted sheet and it also comes with 2 pillow cases.

These were £3 each and I'm currently using them to hold my washi tapes. 

Afterwards I went to the range:
Yay sharp scissors! 

And lastly was asda:
We had to get a member of staff to reach the top shelf to open the packet so I could get two boxes of these, soon they will probably take them off the shelves but I'm addicted. 

Also, last week I bought a candle from simply be:
I love this, anyone like it too?

Last week, I did my first scrap book page =]

Do you like it?

And I also have some bonus pictures of playing with Sheldon yesterday as well:





He loves his fishies on a stick =]

Sorry that I have been distant for a while, hopefully this post filled a void =] 

Love, Emma xxx

18/01/2016

Blogging Rut

Hello Everyone


After writing such a successful post recently, I am now stuck in a blogging rut and I don't know which way to take my blog.
Do you want me to continue with posts on autism and aspergers?
Do you still want me to continue with random posts?

Help me out, please!

Love, Emma xxx

14/01/2016

I Have A Voice


Hello, my name is Emma and I have aspergers.

Something was brought to my attention recently. My sister has been watching the undateables and asked me how come I don't talk like other autistic person and my response was, because I have grown up with outspoken people and been told all my life that there was nothing wrong with me.

According to doctors, woman with autism, don't show signs of it and are better at concealing it.

And I am, I can hide anything from anyone. I am cruel, selfish, jealous and a very negative person.

So how am I different to none aspies?

  • I don't care for my appearance. 
  • If I know I'm going on holiday. then I will research everything - location, activities, read all reviews about where I'm staying and what is near by. 
  • I wear sunglasses even if there isn't any sun. 
  • I use plastic spoons to eat pudding and cereals. 
  • I dream every time I close my eyes and they are always vivid, my nightmares are the worst, I cry in my sleep. I can sometimes control my dreams as well.
  • I hate going out by myself, the thought of crossing a busy road scares me, and if the person I'm with crosses without me then I get really agitated. 
  • I have mild OCD.
  • I struggle with change and prefer it didn't happen. 
  • Classical music calms me. 
  • I can listen to loud music but I have to control the volume of it. 
  • My social skills are crap - I struggle to make friends and keep them or they drop me.
  • I hate large groups of people (even family members).
  • I'm shy.
  • When I get angry, I scream and throw things.
  • I don't like being touched unless asked first. 
  • I play children's dress up games online when I'm bored.
  • I love art, especially photography, that's where my creativity started.
  • I'm an attention seeker and crave it from partners.
  • My head is like a giant bomb, if it ever went off, I'd probably end up in a mental hospital. 
  • If I'm in a quiet room, someone's breathing will drive me crazy.
  • I've never had a job.
  • I don't understand hints, so if you have something to say, just say it.
  • I can't understand math at all. 
  • I will tell you how it is. 
  • I can't tell the time, concept of time stresses me out, I like working at my own pace. 
  • I hate being stared at - even though I like eye contact when I'm talking to you. 
  • If your being mean as I joke, I will take it personally, 
  • I don't like interrupting conversations but if I have something to say I can't wait otherwise I will forget.
  • I am rude, immature, childish and sarcastic. 
  • I swear a lot.
  • I get distracted easily.
  • I am not the same as every other autistic person, so don't assume.
  • I work better following pictures and videos. 
  • I can love but show it differently - I buy presents to represent my love for you. 
  • I can worry about other people.
  • If you give me a gift, even though I don't look grateful, I am.
  • I leave things to the last minute.
  • Anything can stress me out. 
  • I have depression. 
  • I will reveal personally things about myself to strangers. 
  • I don't trust anyone, not even my family. 
  • I can put a mask on and act happy. 
  • I love facts. 
  • Not every autistic person is highly intelligent. 
  • I lie and I hate doing it, but if it means not hurting someone then I will do it. 
  • It's easy to manipulate me. 
  • I have sensory issues. 
  • I'd rather be at home than anywhere else. 
  • Getting older scares me, especially if everyone leaves me.
  • I love fantasy, sci fi, and anime that I wish my life was like them. 
That's all I can think of right now, in the future I will add to it. 

Just because people know about autism, doesn't make it right to judge me and presume you know how I feel and cope with it.

There is no cure! Don't give us a reason to think so. 

After 4 years of blogging, I can say that I love you all for accepting me. 

Thank you =] 

Love, Emma xxx

11/01/2016

Update

Hello Everyone =]


It's been a while since I last updated you about my life so here it goes.

Tomorrow is a big day for me, I'm having a root canal done and to be honest, I am crapping myself, I've never had one before and he's assured me that its going to be okay. It's just I've heard stories of it hurting afterwards or having to have the tooth pulled anyway and I cant have that as its a front tooth and I've only got the two top ones, I'd look stupid with just one. Been nervous about this since I've known about it before christmas.

Also have some exciting news, I will be setting up a business on Etsy to sell my cards, it wont be soon though, I have to build my stock up first but I will tell you when its live and that will be my job.
I made this card for my sister.

I have also decided to finally get into scrap-booking, I've always found it amazing and love seeing what people create and now I want to have something I can keep forever and look back on.

I'm also hoping to up my blogging game this year, I want to go to events and meet all the lovely bloggers I talk too on twitter, even if I have to take my mum with me as I cant travel alone haha.

Have you noticed I use "also" a lot? Kind of annoying haha! I will find a new word next time.

Any criticism about my cards would be much appreciated? And any tips about selling on etsy as well?

Love, Emma xxx


08/01/2016

27 Disney Question's Tag =]

Hello Everyone =]


I found this tag on Underland to wonderland and thought it would be a good tag for the new year, I changed it slightly as the last 3 questions aren't relevant to me.

Questions:

  1. Favourite Character? Stitch.
  2. Favourite Princess? Sleeping Beauty/Aurora.
  3. Favourite Heroine? Mulan. 
  4. Favourite Prince? Flynn Ryder.
  5. Favourite Hero? Simba.
  6. Favourite Animal? Meeko.
  7. Favourite Sidekick? Mushu.
  8. Favourite Villain? Yzma.
  9. Favourite Original Character? Goofy.
  10. Favourite Love Song? Pocahontas - Just around the river bend.
  11. Favourite Song? Pocahontas - Colours of the wind.
  12. Favourite Villain Song? Lion King - Be Prepared. 
  13. Least Favourite Song? Aladdin - A whole new world.
  14. Favourite Kiss? Beauty and the Beast.
  15. The first movie you saw? The Little Mermaid (i think).
  16. Favourite Classic? Bedknobs and Broomsticks.
  17. Song that always gets stuck in your head? Mary Poppins - Chim Chim Cher-ee
  18. Favourite Pixar Film? A Bugs Life.
  19. Least Favourite Pixar Film? Toy Story.
  20. Favourite Sequel? Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead mans chest. 
  21. Overrated Movie? Frozen.
  22. Underrated Movie? Ice Princess.
  23. Movie that makes you laugh? The Emperors New Groove.
  24. Movie that makes you cry? Tangled.
  25. The saddest scene from a movie? Get's to me every time.

    26.  Saddest death? Mufasa (Still can't watch it).
    27.  Favourite Quote? Lilo & Stitch - Ohana means family, family means nobody gets left behind or forgotten. 


Would love to know your answers =]

Love, Emma xxx

04/01/2016

Losing My Way

Hello Everyone


This year hasn't started the way I wanted it too, even though its just the 4th day!
I haven't started my new planner, I've been sleeping all day (more than usual), my about me page was meant to go live on new years day - and I haven't even written it yet. I'm meant to be "researching" on how to sell handmade cards on etsy for my job centre appointment on Wednesday but I'm not good enough to sell them, compared to other card makers, I'm shite! My brain is more blank these past couple of days, I try and think but there's nothing and I cant keep my concentration long enough.

The reality is i live a boring life, I have no job and live off my benefits. I do the same things mostly every day - eat, watch tv, sleep, play games and some times the odd conversation. Except with all this time on my hands, I cant seem to engage my brain into anything important enough.

I just don't know what to do with myself and having people constantly asking me if I'm okay is annoying.

Sorry for the rant, I needed it.

Love, Emma xxx

01/01/2016

2016 Resolutions =]

Hello Everyone =]

Happy New Year!

Every year I always make long lists but never do complete them all, so my resolution for this year is - to lose weight!

What is your resolution?

Love, Emma xxx