Monday, 17 October 2016


Hello Everyone
I am currently feeling sorry for myself as i'm full of cold and I go on holiday on Thursday. I've already packed most of my case, I want to be prepared so I don't forget anything. I need to charge everything before I put chargers in the case but then I'm done. 
As I'm flying from Manchester, me and my sister will be staying in a premier inn on Wednesday night, I'm going to use that opportunity to paint my nails and pamper myself before our early flight of 7am. 
If you've read my previous posts then you will know that I'm going on holiday with my dad, I haven't been on holiday with him since I was 15, I'm now 26! Hope he doesn't treat me like a child. We will also be joined by my dads wife, my half sister, my sister that I live with and my cousin (on my dads wife side) 
For the first time for me, we are staying in a villa in Puerto Del Carmen in Lanzarote. I want to use this week holiday to relax and to not stress about anything. 
At the moment, I'm currently stressing about the airport and flying. I have a fear of heights and flying just makes it worse. Also it will be interesting how my dad can deal with my aspergers. Luckily my sister will be there to help out in case I do have a meltdown. 
Blogging wise, I will not be blogging or scheduling posts.What I do is I take a notebook with me, and write about every day then will blog about it when I'm back. I have been told that the villa has WiFi, so I will be using twitter to update but that's it. And I'm taking my Pokemon phone with me so I can catch Pokemon while i'm there haha. 
I will also be taking both my cameras with me and my bullet journal. I need to get used to using it every day, there will be a post about my bullet journal when I come back, I actually have a few posts to write when I come back so look out for those. 
If you don't follow me on twitter then here is the Link
Fingers crossed this cold is gone by Thursday, the thought of flying with a stuffy nose is a dread. 
Also if you have been reading my blog for a while, you know that I always travel with my Piggy, he reminds me of home and I like taking pictures of him. 
After my holiday, I'm so excited to start preparing for Christmas and making cards plus winter pjs are the best. 

Love, Emma xxx

Monday, 10 October 2016

The Versatile Blogger Award

Hello Everyone =]
I was tagged by the lovely Charlie from Charlie Friend Official to share 7 facts about myself.

1. I had seizures - I was in my teens and I had about 3 fits in one night, the doctors never found out why I had them but they put it down to stress and tiredness. I haven't had one since.

2. I have Asperger's - I was diagnosed last year and still trying to get my head around it.

3. I only have 12 teeth - Neglecting my teeth was the worst thing I could of ever done and I cant get them back, hopefully dentures soon. 

4. I love anything syfy/fantasy - And I mean anything, books, films, tv programs, anime, art.

5. I sleep with my baby blanket next to my pillow - It's a comfort thing.

6. I love tea - Fruit tea, earl grey, green tea, normal tea. 

7. I never recycle or throw away phones - I get attached far too much, so I still have my Nokia 3310 and the cases to go with it. 

Here are the rules for this tag:

1. Thank the person who nominated you.
2. Share the link to their blog.
3. Reveal 7 facts about yourself.
4. Nominate 10-15 bloggers.

I nominate:

1. Becky
2. Tamzin
3. Alice
4. Parie
5. Marc
6. Steph
7. Victoria
8. Bronagh
9. Jamie
10. Amanda

Loved doing this, took me a week to think of 7 facts haha

Love, Emma xxx

Friday, 30 September 2016

September Favourite's

Hello Everyone =]
Another month finished, the start of the month was great but its gone down hill from there, I feel so meh lately. Apparently it's autumn, the weather has been weird lately, warm yet windy, then it rains and its cold at night, I want fluffy socks and gingerbread lattes. I've also been buying more Christmas crafts for after my holiday, can't wait to make cards, I have so much stuff, will do a blog post with all bits I've bought soon.

Netflix Show

Brooklyn Nine-nine = 7/10
Plot: Jake Peralta, an immature but talented NYPD detective in Brooklyn's 99th Precinct, comes into immediate conflict with his new commanding officer, the serious and stern Captain Ray Holt.

Netflix Film

Lucy = 6/10
Plot: A woman, accidentally caught in a dark deal, turns the tables on her captors and transforms into a merciless warrior evolved beyond human logic.


Hunters = 8/10
Plot: The disappearance of a decorated FBI agent's wife leads him to a secret government unit assembled to hunt a group of ruthless terrorists - shadowy figures that may or may not be from this world.


Lady Gaga - Perfect Illusion = 9/10
Such a catchy song, cant wait to hear the rest of her album. 


New Style Boutique = 8/10
The first installment, maybe should of bought this one first haha its okay, compared to the second one I like the second one more but I like the fact that you can dress up men in this one. Really hoping for a third game, combining both of the games together. 

Dates for next month

20th - 27th October = Holiday to Lanzarote
24th October = The Walking Dead

What have you loved this month?

Don't forget to follow me on Twitter for daily tweets =]

Love, Emma xxx

Saturday, 24 September 2016

Late Night Chat

Hello Everyone
Sat here, alone, with so many thoughts running round my head, need to release some, may as well be on here.
So there is only 25 days left til my holiday and I'm shitting one! Bearing in mind, I haven't been on holiday with my dad since I was about 15 and also I don't live with him, I see him nearly every weekend but its only for a couple of hours each time. Since having my diagnosis of aspergers, he said he understands but I know he doesn't. I know I'm going to panic on the plane, I know my sister will be there to support me, but I don't want to embarrass him, I also don't know how my 6 year old half sister would act if I were to have a meltdown, either on the plane or in the villa. I'm scared, but anytime I mention anything to him, he shuts me down, tells me to stop being silly and that I'll be okay. It's a difficult situation, I'm hoping my sister can help me out if I need it.
I also don't think that some family members know that depression is different in each person, yes I may be laughing but inside its a different story, that I don't wish to indulge anyone in, as its my messed up mind, no one else's.

I recently had my 2nd year DWP assessment, basically, if I don't "pass" by there rules then they will throw me into work. And I know I'm 26 now and I should be working but I don't want too, I've never wanted too, I work better by myself, in my own time. I should be really going self employed but I have no motivation to make anything, its a cruel, selfish circle.

I've also realized that I haven't done an autism post in a while, its tricky, to me and my family, I've always been Emma, now i'm Emma who's finally been diagnosed as autistic. Yes, its my own fault for not getting assessed when i was younger, but for someone who was bullied for being different and just wanting to be normal, i didn't want to be known as autistic, and I know that sounds so bad but it was bad thing back then. But I now know how much my life would of been different if i were diagnosed earlier, but would i have ended up the person i am now? I think not!

My weight is also an issue for me at the moment too, don't know if you remember, but at the start of the year, i tried the slim fast diet then gave up because i was too hungry. Well, knowing that i'm going on holiday, I've found it so hard, trying to find swimwear that fits. As I don't have any money, I've been buying stuff off my catalog, lets just say, i tried on nearly every swimwear they sold, finally found one that fits but I hate my legs and I'm currently on the hunt for a pair of mens swim shorts that i can wear with it as well.
I know i'm going to be fat on holiday, I wish i was going somewhere cold so i could wrap up instead, its been so hard, trying to find summer clothes as its autumn, but i found a few bits, i just don't want to look like a whale in the pool/beach. Or have my family take the piss out of me for being fat, unfortunately it does happen and it does hurt my feelings.

In my last post, I said that I've started a bullet journal, well I did for a few days then I've forgotten about it, I will be getting back into it, might start a new week next week. I am looking forward to using it on holiday too, and afterwards you will get a post on it, so that's a bonus.

I'm so sorry that this post was so negative but I feel a bit better that I've written all this down now.

Don't forget to follow me on Twitter, im more active on there =]

Love, Emma xxx

Sunday, 18 September 2016


Hello Everyone =]
Only 32 days left til my holiday to Lanzarote =]

I've been trying to get summer clothes even though all the autumn stuff has hit the selves now. I've finally found a swimsuit that fits, I have had to send 2 back already. Now, just waiting on pjs, trainers and crop pants. Hoping they arrive before I go on holiday.
I've started packing my case now, still need a few bits to buy. I'm so nervous about flying, but I'm so excited to be going back to Lanzarote and experience a week away with my family.
I am going to miss my cats though.

I've finally started a bullet journal, but wont be doing a review til after my holiday as it's my first time using one and getting used to it.

I also started buying Christmas crafts to make cards and handmade presents =]

I finished my online CBT course and to be honest, I feel no different, don't think it worked.

Not much has been happening, been watching TV and I've been pinning a lot, you can follow me Here

I don't have much to say, just wanted to write a post as its been a while.

Love, Emma xxx

Monday, 12 September 2016

Love With Food Box

Hello Everyone =]

At the #Livhelps event, we all had one of these in our goodie bags, this is a gluten free food box from Love with food I have eaten most of it so I will rate each snack.
 0/10 = yucky!

 6/10 = Gooey but nice taste

 9/10 = Love!

 Quinoa: 10/10, Brownie: 7/10

 10/10 = Love!

 10/10 = Love!

 8/10 = Not as tart as i thought they would be.

10/10 = Love!

I didn't know gluten free could taste so nice and I'm sad that I can't get most of these in the UK. 

Have you ever tried this company?

Love, Emma xxx

Sunday, 11 September 2016

My 26th Birthday

Hello Everyone =]
Yesterday was my 26th birthday =]
I woke up early, before my sister went to work and opened my mums presents.
He's a bobble head =]
These are adorable!

I had a good day and night, I spent my morning with my dad, his wife and my half sister, we went to harvester and I got eggs benedict and a mango and apple smoothie, it was very nice. He gave me my presents while we were there.
 Its so cute, it just fits in my hand but its what I wanted, he also got me an SD card for it, the case is a bit late for arriving but he'll bring it next weekend.
My sister got me £20 worth of Matalan vouchers.

After food they wanted to go in M&S so I popped into Superdrug instead and got a two bits,
After coming home, my mum surprised me with birthday cake and flowers =]

It was a bit of a wait til dinner, so I didn't do much. 

I had a restaurant booked for 7pm, it was an Italian, its about £20 per person so bargain =]
I was joined by my mum, sister and her friend. 
I decided to have a J2O mango and apple to drink and garlic bread for starter. 
Then came the mains, in this place, you order 3 dishes for yourself as they are only small but really nice. 
I had Arichini balls, caeser salad and carbonara. I obviously had to have dessert too so I got tiramisu.

My sister also gave me my present there too.

 Pocket sized purse

My birth stone - Sapphire 

I also received money from a few people which will go towards holiday stuff. 

I had a good day, good company and I cant wait to go shopping tomorrow and finally buy bits for my holiday next month. 

Thank you to everyone who wished me happy birthday on facebook, instagram and twitter. 

Love, Emma xxx
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